This is what I had written down in my diary on 10 January 2007, when I left Chennai (not for the first time) for the future that was waiting for me in Mumbai. I was recruited by an MNC from my campus in Pune, a month before that. I was excited to start a new life. This life I had anticipated and which taught me several lessons of life is soon coming to an end. I resigned this week and next week I will be saying goodbye to this company. I am taking a break-for personal reasons and will be staying with my parents.
This is a decision I had made after putting in a lot of thought into it, but this has proved to be more difficult than i thought -Feeling vulnerable is the least I can say.
It is not just the inequation (positive outflows and zero inflows) that bothers me, but also the independence that comes with it. I realised most of us end up in jobs we never liked to do and are scared to chase our dreams just because of this inequation-mostly, howmuchever we refuse to accept the fact.
On the positive side I am looking forward to doing things I have always wanted to. I am outside the comfort zone now. My mind is currently clutter-free. No more office politics, appraisals, targets, numbers, presentations, trainings.. My life will be free from meaningless numbers that made sense to no one -neither the ones that came up with them nor the ones running after them. I will have the time to figure out what I want to do with my life, which is just not a job that can get me the moolah.
But what happens to my independence? Have I lost it or gained it? I am yet to figure that out. Shall update when I do. :D
But I believe the journey is still on.. ;)